A Revolution Must be Had

I was talking with Scotty last night about our friends from back in Troy. After spending a while reminiscing about just what we missed about those friends, we quickly came to the same conclusion; there is something wrong with the world.

I've been feeling really frustrated ever since the beginning of this weekend and I couldn't exactly put my finger on why. All I knew was that I kept ending up sitting in corners, observing my friends, not really interacting or talking with anyone (and not really wanting to), and just feeling incredibly annoyed. After a while, I decided that I needed to be done with that, so I got drunk as fast as I could without vomiting.

After talking with Scotty, I think I figured out why. Most of my friends here are self absorbed, self interested, and too willing to get upset with each other over little things that don't matter. I won't name names, but its not necessary since it applies to roughly half of them and who does it doesn't really matter; the fact that a majority of my friends are like this is what matters.

Who am I really surrounding myself with? All of this idiotic infighting and self-contained drama is ridiculous. Back home, there was just as much shit that went down, probably even more since we dated within the group excessively. However, we never lingered on it as much as happens here. We never let it split us and divide us into little factions competing for turf.

I think that a major difference which helped a lot back home was that the group was not formed first. Instead, each one of us became friends with the others because we saw them all of the time in classes and in the hallways. We would introduce one person to another person, not one person to the entire group. This allowed for the creation of a much more real dynamic than the Metagamers could ever have. Our friendships were genuine and not formed over a common interest other than our genuine interest in each other. Instead of competing with each other for the attention of a few, we became like kin towards each other, bonded and backed by blood. This ridiculous competition for attention that the Carpé Nocten group has is retarded.

The other, more obvious, thing that the Family had over the Carpé Noctem group is the fact that its members were much more interested in the important things in life. Not a day went by where we didn't discuss philosophy, come up with some grand scheme, or talk about the problems of the world. Maybe this sounds hypocritical since I hate discussing politics with the Carpé Noctem group, but when politics are discussed by them, it is rarely ever a discussion. It's usually an argument and a dick slapping contest and nothing more. I hate it so much. Renny and I discuss politics quite a bit relatively, but that's because I feel like things actually get discussed. The finer details are brought up, both sides are critiqued, and I actually feel like I am thinking more.

Anyway, all of this discussion and thinking with Scotty led us to a conclusion: a revolution must be had. People must be brought above their petty arguments and differences and band together for the good of the world. Philosophy and other intellectual topics must be discussed. Hedonism and Egocentrism needs to be crushed. Stupidity cannot be tolerated and must need be punished. We are all of the same cut, the same flesh, and most act for one another, not ourselves.