Fishy Fish Fish, in a Glass

I drank too much last night. Lynley and I went out to stock up on liquor for the year and spent $120 doing so. I hadn't touched any liquor since Renny left because I simply hadn't had the urge to. However in the the well lubricated social situation that was last night, I found myself just letting myself go. I think a major factor in my excessive drinking was just how much I missed Renny. She took off on a plane for Scotland yesterday and I'm not going to be able to hear from her until she has enough time and a computer. I miss her so much. I've never missed anyone as much as her. The fact that not only have I not heard from her, but that I can't just contact her on a whim terrifies me. There's absolutely no way that I can make sure she's okay or comfort her if she's scared or upset. I just feel so impotent.